manikanika ni moniko

My pc is so f*cked up. I had been rerunning virus scan for days now and still I can't log in to my main blog. Prolly my last option will be reformatting my cpu. Haays.

I can't sleep. In a couple of hours I'll go back to old company to have my clearance and exit interview. Dear, I'm experiencing the same old feeling I had when I really wanted to get out of that company. I can't sleep and I'm never at ease. And now, knowing that I'll go back there, those are all coming back. Paksyet.

I have to finish everything today. I don't want to go back tehre anymore. So help me God.

Natunaw ang puso ko nung nagsorry ka. Syet. Kahit anong gawin kong pag-iwas alam ko sa sarili ko na mahal pa rin kita. Kaso kasama mo siya. Mahal ka niya. Magulo ka. Magulo ako. Nasaktan ako. Malamang nasaktan ka.

Mahal kita. HIndi ko ine-expect na bumalik ka at ako pero pwede bang huwag muna ngayon?

Two weeks to go and I'm still not okay of moving to another company. There had been opportunites that I'll be missing like new agents, possible moving to higher level. I'll be missing old friends and starting anew.

I want to be optimistic about my moving out and I hope all the sacrifice are worthy.

Yesterday, I decided to live in the present. What I have now is what it is. I ceased thinking of what he feels about me or if he still loves me. What's happening right now manifests what he feels. I'm such a fool to believe that he loves me and that love was enough for everything to be fine.

Once in our life we become fools but with this lifetime I became fool more than thrice.

And I hope I'll never make the same mistake again.

Dahil ilang oras na lang ay matatapos na ang shift kong may kahalong OT, naisip kong magbalak ng mga pagbabago sa paglipat ko sa bagong trabaho. may mga naipos na akong gusto kong baguhin pero may mga gusto rin akong gawin paglipat ko dun para din malibang.

1. Aayusin ko na ang tabulas ko. Hahaluan ko ng mga picture at buburahin ang mga emo post. Gagawin ko na siyang kapana-panabik.

2. Mag-aaral na akong lumangoy. Mage-enroll na ako sa swimming class kapag nakapag-adjust na ako sa bagong work.

3. Mag-aaral na rin akong mag-drive. kukuha ako ng lisenxa kahit wala pang kotse bago matapos ang taong ito.

4. Mag-iimpok ako ng pera at kailangan makarami ako pag-lipat ko.

5. Bibili ako ng IPOD.

6. Bibili ako ng laptop.

7. Bibili ako ng flat screen TV.

8. Magbabayad ako sa credit card.

9. Magtravel ako around the country next year.